Well so much for starting the new year
by writing more.
Oh well... as I say to myself, every
year, it is better late than never, so here it is: this year's anti
resolution list. (This was last year's list).
So last year was about trying to have
more fun. I am not sure how successful we were at reaching that
goal, but I say we had some pretty good times, minus some major and
minor bumps in the road.
This year I am doubling the amount of
goals for myself.
Goal 1 – try to not feel so guilty
all the time.
I figure this goal can be reached one
of two ways. The first way is to just get my ass in gear and get the
job done, whether it is dishes in the sink (or finally writing in
this blog), and/or by sucking it up, put on a happy face, and just do
it, like playing a card game for the millionth time, even if I do not
want to because it makes my kid happy. To me, it is better to just
get things done quickly than to leave it and then feel bad about it
after. Besides, in the latter, even if the card game sucks, I do
love spending time with the kid.
The second way to reach this goal is to
just stop feeling guilty. It annoys the hell out of me when my
husband is sick and refuses to let me help him with stuff. For one
thing, it takes him twice as long to do anything, and then I have to
listen to him complain about how much he hurts after. And then I
realize, I do the exact same thing. So this year, I am going to give
myself permission to just not do stuff (sometimes) and to
not feel bad. I have to learn that I am not responsible for
everything, and that I can ask for help – plus I should not feel
bad for asking for help.
Goal 2 – stop saving everything
I am one of those people that like to
save things for special occasions. This year, I am going to start
using more and saving less. I do not mean I am going off to max out
my credit cards and not give a dam. I am talking about the things I
already own. For example, I am going to start actually drinking the
expensive teas that I have, instead of just keeping it for when
company comes over, especially since I rarely entertain. I am going
to wear that cute skirt just for fun, whether it is going out or even
just hanging around the house. I have donated many outfits with tags
on, in the past, because they no longer fit or were simply out of
style. And, I am going to let my daughter do this too. What is the
point of allowing her to have toys if I don't let her play with them
– we have a large collection of craft kits that we kept around for
rainy days that we have yet to open; I have to learn that we can
craft on sunny days as well.
So here are my two goals this year.
Right now, I feel kind of good for getting this off my chest, and at
the same time feel okay about the dishes that I am ignoring, in the
sink, while I am doing this.
Happy New Year!
