The year's Valentine's Day Letter

And here is this year's belated love letter.... (I am starting to see a trend... sigh)

Dear Deep Breath,

It has been a while since I have taken some time for you.

My life seems to be so hectic these days, running off to school, zooming to after school activities, getting food ready, cleaning (okay, I do not really clean that much...) and then planning for things to do on the weekend.

I feel like I forgot how to just stop and inhale. I feel like I am going nowhere fast.

Just the other day, I took my daughter sledding; knowing that we had a very small window to do this activity – a) the sun sets at 4:30 (at least it no longer start setting at 3:00...) and b) it was freezing. So there I stood watching her zoom down the hill, and then SLOWLY coming back up the hill with her toboggan. She was employing the two step forward, three slides back method of climbing up the hill. I was, of course, getting annoyed standing up there waiting for her. After all, she was the one who wanted to do this. I was about to yell, when I noticed that she was giggling, laughing and having fun!

This was the moment when I remembered you my long lost friend.

So I stood on top of the hill, took a very deep breath, and just enjoyed the scenery. I was literally at the top of a hill (and we had the hill to ourselves that day) watching a beautiful sunset and spending time with my daughter. So really, who the hell cares that we were not going up and down as many time as we could pack in. The whole point of this was to go outside, get some fresh air and have fun! If she has fun falling down the hill, I should just let her.

So from this point on, I am hoping to rediscover and spend more time with you. To stop, take a deep breath, and just enjoy the moment.

Forever yours,

Me

Letters from previous years

2013

2012

2011

A Valentine's Day letter...

Okay... I am a bit late with this year's love letter (here is last year's letter)... but I figure it is better late than never...

To my darling Patience,

I cannot really say that I miss you because I never really 'had' you in the first place.

You are the one that got away.

You remain, always, almost within my grasp, just slightly out of reach, a fleeting shadow seen out of the corner of my eye.

There are times when I think that I finally understand you, when I finally catch you, only to have you vanish like smoke after the slightest provocation. Come to think about it, you are a bit of a tease.

You are one of my greatest regrets.

And, I do not want to live with regrets.

I would really love to forge a relationship with you. Nothing ephemeral, something solid that we can build on for the future.

So what say you? Will you help me my darling? Show me your ways. Hold my hand when I want to scream and yell; or, help me take cool, deep breaths when my temper flares.

I do not think I am a lost cause. I will try very hard to work on our relationship. So please, stop running, stay still, and let us see what sort of future we can have together.

Waiting patiently for your reply...

Love,

Me.