I see all these unfinished projects
around me, but I lack the will to get my ass in gear to complete any
of them..
Take writing for example. I am barely
writing twice a month. Twice a month... I was aiming to put
something down once a week... and really, it should not take me that
long to type a few words, after all, I am not aiming to write 20 page
essays. It is not even because I have no idea what to write; I have
a couple of ideas gathering cobwebs in some corner of my mind. I
just don't seem to be able to get motivated.
I turn my computer on, and instead of
doing something productive, I play games, watch Youtube videos, sit
there and wait for my friends to add new posts on Facebook, or read
all sort of gossipy celebrity websites..
Meanwhile, my floors are gathering
dust, the clothes in my closet are threatening to fall down on me,
there is some sort of science project growing in my fridge, and my
bathroom is... okay, I still clean the bathroom, I am not that gross
yet... but close.
I just don't feel like doing anything.
And simply thinking about finishing projects makes me feel
overwhelmed, and yet, I feel restless. I want to do something, yet I
do not know what, and how.
Maybe I need a change. Or maybe I just
need to hunker down, get a list going and just do something. I know
I will probably feel better if I just finish something.
Maybe after posting this, I will
finally pull the vacuum cleaner out again or maybe I will just watch
one more video online.
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